So I have had the good fun that comes with getting to know yourself. In other-words a dry spell. Years without a boyfriend and when this is the case people begin to ask well what is it about me that is so grating that no one wants to cling to me. there must be desperate people out there who are willing to date me no mater what. I know there must be because I have reached the point of desperation where I cannot recall what it was like to have someone like you.
For a week or so someone did like me and I liked him and suddenly he liked someone else. So I remember what is is like to like someone at least.
Yes, I finally saw a movie before everyone else. I went to an IMax Movie premier which was on a Wednesday night. And suffice it to say I was the only person who had never liked a James Bond movie before who was there. Actually I was one of the few people there at all. The movie had maybe 30 people in it. But that is ok.
The poster I got
Skyfall had a predictable plot twist. A kind of Dark Knight theme to it. With a Joker like villain. But they did it well, in their own fashion. Apparently the James Bond way is a very unique way. I was wrong, and I feel ashamed for admitting, that Mission impossible was just an american version of 007. But I was wrong only because of the 50 year history the Bond movies have. If you want an homage to the old movies you've got it in Skyfall. A little bit of James Bond history is scattered here and there. If you want a villain with a gruesome back-story, Skyfall is your movie. Cool special effects. Got um.
I project that everyone will like the movie. Once it is over. The running time is almost 3 hours. halfway through the movie I was looking forward to the explosions in the end. There was a severe lack of explosions early in on the movie. The Chase scenes were fantastic and the gadgets were lacking in numbers but ok in effectiveness.
So basically I went to the wrong midnight showing. Rule for anyone going to see Skyfall tonight. Do not take your girlfriends. Bryce Massey made it abundantly clear that I was stepping on man parts by being there.
It has come to my attention that not all times before I was born were evil. I believed up until a short time ago that the 80's were spawned from the devil. But in reality the 80's were spawned from 1977.
Annie came out as a stage musical in '77
1977 was filled with all kinds of changes. Firstly, my dad graduated from High school. Now Paul Chatfield graduating did not happen first really. But it is why I chose this year. If anyone is more knowledgeable about his own life than a history teacher who loves to know things, I'll chose his graduating year. but until then...
The first woman was ordained an Episcopal priest. The worlds first personal computer was demonstrated in Chicago. The largest woman conference since the turn of the century was held. And Meryl Streep debuted on the silver screen.
In reality it seems more happened in social media than happened in any other category that year. Sure gas was less expensive than eggs that year and Carter was president. But how can these things compare to Star Wars Opening!?
Star Wars was going to make money even though it was considered a low budget film. People likes to go to the movies. Close Encounters of the third Kind also came out that year. People liked space movies. What Lucas didn't realize was that people would like a space movie with a campy western plot.
Other movies that I LOVE that came out that year.
Saturday night fever
Smokey and the bandit
The rescuers
The spy who loved me
Pete’s dragon
Original Fun with Dick and Jane movie
The many adventures of Winnie the pooh
Now Saturday Night Fever,the dance movie. The thing is music was doing some crazy stuff in the 70's, rather like the drugs people were on. The wealthy hated rock and the rockers hated pop rock. Rock was saturated into the public and the real rockers needed the 6 minute rock ballad to satisfy their artistic needs. These real rockers were called super groups. They were trained musicians who wanted art. So there was a great divide in '77 between the dancers and the rockers. Motown satisfied the dancers for a little but you really couldn't dance to it. So when the Bee Jee's strayed from their original sound and did disco the prayers of millions of dance starved people were answered! Stayin' Alive rocked the world from then on! And people started singing again!
But the world was not all music and movies. Television played a major role in peoples homes. M.A.S.H. a popular T.V. show still had been running for a while but the climate for veterans was pretty bad. WE had lost the recent war M.A.S.H was a nice relief of that tension as well as a way for the public to relate to the veterans.
I wanted so badly to hate this movie. As a matter of fact I did. I thought it was boring, taught children to stay in line and made me feel like I had a sugar tooth ache in the end. But my Nephew Jack Flanagan got a hold of that information and he would have none of it. You see he could not believe that I did not like it. I told him that I did not like bugs, and that is why I did not like the movie. While it is true the bugs were a terrible part of the movie because they did nothing but inter fear with the plot and pander to younger audiences, my nephew merely responded with, "Oh. I do." Meaning that he likes bugs.
This gave me an idea. Maybe the movie was not meant for me.
I was shocked by this idea. And I still do not agree with it. But I do not like when my nephew and I disagree. I agree with him on all the important things like pirates, Spiderman, Toy Story and cake. So I want to take another look at the movies he likes. I grew to like Cars, as did most of the american populace. I am sure that was on the recommendation of Jack. I'll get back to you on the details. But for now here is a link to play the games featured in the movie. http://disney.go.com/wreck-it-ralph/#/games
Often times I think about how alone people are. Most people would conciser themselves alone because no one is as loved as they need to be. If you are reading this and you are lucky enough to be perfectly loved I want you to look around, past your circle of infinite acceptance and find the most unlikable person you can and invite them into your circle.
This has Christian undertones and certainly depressing qualities but please think. Just think. Don't... don't count your blessings or try to fix anything. Just be honest. Nobody deserves to live.
I am often told to improve myself. To make everything better with this mental exerciser or that. But it will never fix my loneliness. My overwhelming infinite loneliness that could only be filled as a child with thousands of imaginary people populating my toys, my life, my mind. I wish I had something profound to say. I always used to try to have something profound to say. I thought it might make me a more interesting person that people might love. But alas. You can make no one love you. You can make no one trust you. You can make no one see you. All you have is luck. That dang stupid luck that socialization, skill and parenting brought you.
It is no mistake that I have only had one friend in the coarse of my life. She hates the pressure of being my only friend. And I hate putting her in that position. But every day I find more people who hate me for who I am. More reasons why I am screwed up.
A bunch of crap has happened to me. And I have acted as a catalyst for that crap. Therefore crap likes me and gravitates toward me. Meanwhile the people around me get the preferential treatment of the universe. No one has died. Most people are happily married and it seems that everyone has had the same fiends since the 6th grade.
I have hurt every minute of every day since 2010. I have no secret message. No hopeful end. Nothing to gain from this post. I just want you all to be happy. I want you all to live well and to learn that people hurt sometimes. And sometimes that hurt cannot be fixed.
So here is a list of songs about unrequited love.
I wanted so badly to hate this movie. As a matter of fact I did. I thought it was boring, taught children to stay in line and made me feel like I had a sugar tooth ache in the end. But my Nephew Jack Flanagan got a hold of that information and he would have none of it. You see he could not believe that I did not like it. I told him that I did not like bugs, and that is why I did not like the movie. While it is true the bugs were a terrible part of the movie because they did nothing but inter fear with the plot and pander to younger audiences, my nephew merely responded with, "Oh. I do." Meaning that he likes bugs.
